Showing posts with label fibromyalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fibromyalgia. Show all posts

Sep 14, 2010

national invisible illness week.

hey friends! i'm still catching up on my INSANE google reader back-up, so bear with me! i really can't wait to get to read all your lovely posts!

i want to bring light to something that's close to my heart today. this week is National Invisible Illness Week, raising awareness for an issue i pray you guys never deal with.

1 of 2 americans will have a chronic illness at some point in their lives, and 96% of them won't be physically visible. whether it's diabetes, heart disease, chronic fatigue, or many others, each day millions suffer in silence. they look fine from the outside, but please don't underestimate the intensity of symptoms they hide behind their eyes. when you live with chronic illness, you learn many tricks to maintain some level of normalcy.

chronic illnesses can be depressing, heartbreaking, and make you feel it's not worth the effort to keep going. the best thing in the world to combat those emotions is knowing your life does matter.

this week, please take the time to remind someone that's sick of just that: their life matters. give them a (gentle!) hug. tell them how much they mean to you, and how brave they are. tell them they make you so proud, and how much you appreciate all their efforts.

some of my favorite incredible warriors, overcoming their daily obstacles?

melissa, from melissa nibbles
susan, from coffee and the paper
christie, from honoring health
sarah, from gluten free tries vegan
chuck, from feerless food
the daily bloggers from Rest Ministries
ayla, from high on healthy
nattie, from morsels of life

and many, many other sweethearts who have written me emails about their challenges, be they food allergies, chronic conditions, emotional eating, or family struggles. i am so blessed to know you all, and you keep me constantly amazed... i thank god for you!

please, will you join me in celebrating those lives that most definitely are worth the struggle?

is there someone with chronic disease in your life? what struggles do you see them face?
if you have an illness, what makes your day brighter?
-rebekah

Sep 10, 2010

to whom it may concern...



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dear anonymous -

first of all, i wish you had left your name when you commented. this blog is a place where we embrace ourselves, and i don't like it when anyone feels they can't be who they are. not cool. but that's neither here nore there.

secondly, i want to thank you. no, seriously! you brought to mind an issue i've been struggling with, an important lesson that by god's grace i've accepted over the last year or two: the importance of not judging others. 

when you commented on my weight, did you realize how that would crush me? although i am proud of who i am, i'm still human and vulnerable to criticism. did you stop and think about that before you pressed submit?

you mentioned how i looked "before i lost of bunch of weight..." did you know i lost that weight because i was bedridden? that i slept 20 hours a day and just got up to pee? that i had to call my mom to carry me down the stairs? i didn't crash-diet, i was in a medicated coma. not shockingly, food wasn't too appealing. it took energy, and i didn't have any. simple as that.

if you had been in contact with me over the last few years, you would have know that i've desperately struggled with my body. praise God that improving body image is now one of my biggest passions. and i still struggle with eating enough and exercising to this day. i still am so grateful for each mile i can walk, because there was a time i couldn't walk any. did you know that?

all questions aside, that's not what i'm thanking you for. i appreciate your comment because it brought to light a realization i've had since i got sick that's worth mentioning: who am i to judge anyone because of their body?


when i see someone walking down the street, the only thing i know about them is their appearance. how on earth do i think i have any business commenting on what they look like, when i don't know them? i hate to admit i used to gossip mercilessly about anyone i deemed too fat, dressed too slutty, or wore too much makeup.

the second i opened my smart mouth, all i accomplished was showering my pride, arrogance, and hate on everyone around me. i thought i was better than this person because in my mind, i wasn't "too" anything (although i did hate my own body, but that's another story). how it shames me to even admit that! sadly, it took me years before i could face my own shortcomings, realize God is the only true Judge, and in turn accept we all struggle, we all have flaws, and we all have a story behind them.

that critically obese person at the store? they are an incredible gift of God. who knows what they are struggling with in their own life? people have no more or less worth because of their weight, and if i truly cared about their health, i would pray for their lives and heart instead of mocking their body. that trashy-looking girl at the movies? who knows what she's been through? what does she deal with on a daily basis that i've only seen in movies? if i really cared, i would hug her instead of condemn her. that girl whose bones jut out from her skin? after the weight struggles i've gone through, if anyone loves this girl, it should be me. how dare i make her as the butt of my jokes, when i've been that girl! i could be the one voice she needs to keep believing there's hope in life, and each time i criticize her, i confirm her worst fears.


there's been a huge focus on self-love over the last few weeks, and i'm thrilled! before you can help others, you certainly must deal with yourself.

but sometimes, i think it's easy to forget the power in our words. it's not just about fat-talk, although that's a pretty big deal. more than that, though, we need to deal with what doesn't happen when we judge - love. when we choose to criticize someone, not only do we reenforce our own negativity, but we sever any chance we had to positively impact that person, and that might have been the only kind word they got for quite some time. 

next time we're tempted to judge, let's own up to the fact it probably comes from our own insecurities. how about we stop and consider what they're going through first, or compliment them instead? we have millions of opportunities to impact lives for the better - why not take them?

so anonymous, thanks for bringing that up, and thanks for reconfirming what i already knew to be true - because i am wonderfully made, i treat my body right. because i treat my body right, i accept what i see in the mirror. because i accept what i see, what you see doesn't threaten me. i know who i am and the victory that my life is. do you, anonymous?

are you aware of how your words impact others?
what can we do to build others up instead of tear them apart?
- rebekah

Sep 7, 2010

ask me anything, and a body image week ramble.

mornin' sunshines! today is a crazy-full day for me, so i am typing at warp speed right now... forgive my certain typos (i just wrote typeos - case in point).

sidenote: apparently the last few days i've been struggling with google images to get good pictures for the blog, so certainly unrelated, but kinda funny/true/thought-provoking at the same time:


two quick thoughts for today:

1. thank you, thank you, thank you to all the amazing voices who chimed in on my little animal-free series over the last week or so, but also, thanks to all who read! you guys are seriously my joy in writing.

but seriously, though - this isn't a one-sided blog. i want to be a research buddy, a source of encouragement, and someone to bounce thoughts off of... no matter what you eat!

i really appreciate the folks who commented something different than i wrote, or added something i missed. my dear friend christie's comment on yesterday's vegan misconceptions post reminded me that i still i want to write much more about approaching nutrition in general, not just animal-products, so stay tuned for that (and a post on iron absorption!). if you have anything you're curious about or want to hear my thoughts on, please comment or shoot me an email! there seriously is no such thing as a stupid or pointless question.

2. september 5-12th is national body image and eating disorders awareness week (BIEDAW) in australia. to all my australian friends (and everyone else!), i hope you realize how incredibly beautiful your life is! i seriously couldn't be more in awe of how incredible the human body is - in every size, race, and gender. amazing.

because of this, i've been thinking about body image a lot. this is a bit of a ramble, but here's some of my uncensored thoughts:

i guess i've felt that god has mostly healed me from my negative thoughts in the last few months, so i haven't posted a lot on body image. i should change that, now that i think about it... but anyways, in celebration of body image and ed week, i want to update y'all on this new phase in my story: the victory we can find in knowing numbers AND not caring.

i've written about my body image struggles before, so i am sensitive about posting weight/calories/pant size/etc. you aren't me, are you? so why would my weight effect your health? it's too easy to judge and get fixated on details that aren't important in life and can lead to destruction.

if you follow me on twitter, you might have caught a glimpse of my excitement yesterday:

@bekahraenels:
To all the girls who think you have to starve to stay in shape, DON'T! i prob ate 3,000+ cals and my pants STILL FIT! You are beautiful TODAY

about 13 hours ago via txt
my point? when you embrace nourishing your body for health, what that looks like to others might seem strange.
 
do i eat like a man? yes. am i the strongest i've ever been in my life? yes! how? I EAT GOOD FOOD WHEN I'M HUNGRY. i don't get emotional if my "i-haven't-broken-the-calorie-counting-habit-completely-yet" brain says WOAH YOU JUST ATE 1,000 CALORIES IN ONE SITTING. because you know what? i needed them! and i feel great after eating them! 
 
it's an incredible moment when you can acknowledge reality about life, how it applies to you, and accept it peacefully. i've been testing that in my diet over the last few weeks, and it was a huge victory to discover how many calories i was eating and SMILE because i didn't care. i've just accepted my new, healthier, active, incredibly strong body needs a lot of food. want a number? between 2,500 and 3,500 calories.
 
i wasted years jumping through all the "right" hoops to manage my weight: i never ate fried foods. i denied myself incredible desserts at parties. i counted calories. i didn't eat at night. i exercised up to 2 hours a day, 6 times a week. i ate my fruits and veggies. i read nutrition labels like it was my MCAT.
 
none of that was effective at anything other than making me miserable. in my heart, i never felt adequate. sadly, it took an uncurable disease before i realized i can be happy with life the way it is RIGHT NOW because that's all i have.
 
i'm not scared to post those calories because my life proves starvation is NOT the only way! please reexamine that logic... your body deserves so much more! also, i love throwing people for a loop, and it totally tickles me to death that it's not kosher to like your body and be a girl... but you know what? I LOVE THIS BODY.
 
you heard right folks. shockingly, my body is ok today, and it was ok yesterday, and it will be tomorrow too. and yeah, it's still ok if i eat cake.
 
GASP. i said it. sue me.
 
god's been teaching me that peace with myself spills over in other areas of my life, too. i go to bed at 9-something pm every night, didn't party on my 21st birthday and don't drink, don't like dessert, and my mom is my best friend. i love moving my body and am thrilled with how god's given me the strength after weeks of being confined to my bed. and the most increible gift? after years of trying to find my worth in getting guys' attention, i'm perfectly content being single and living life one day at a time.
 
so yeah, here i am world. i'm 21, right-handed, can fit in kids' clothes, have bloodshot eyes and a smart mouth, and a fiery temper that blows up in ethics class. but that's neither here nor there. what's imporant is i could have written anything and been equally satisfied. woah nelly, and praise god. 
 
life is miraculous: don't miss living because of details.
 
if you're australian, how will you participate?
if you aren't, what do you embrace about your body?
-rebekah

Jul 16, 2010

let's get real, folks.

you know how sometimes you love reading a blog, but you realize you don't really know anything about the person behind the food?

(or maybe that blogger is you...?)

i hate that! i want to get to know the heart and soul behind the posts. i can find recipes anywhere, but personality? that's a rare gift.

because of that, i aim to be as transparent as possible here at Clarity in Creation... even if it's not a pretty sight!

so in the spirit of full disclosure, here are a few honest statements that have been floating around in my heart and brain here recently...


thank you all so much for your sweet comments on my fibro diet post! i'm definitely not an expert by any means, but if someone else can learn from my mistakes and hard-earned lessons, i'm all for that!

if anyone ever has any tips for me (concerning anything!), i'd be honored if you'd share them. i love new experiences, recipes, and any tidbits of information that could help others. or if there's something i should know, fill me in!


when i remember, i've been trying to post Operation Beautiful notes at the gym, grocery store, etc.

i haven't been taking pictures of them because i'm not concerned about sending the pictures in... i just want the ladies i cross paths with to feel special, for only for one minute of their day.

have you written any Operation Beautiful notes? or have you found any?


since my orientation on monday, i've been working on my class schedule, and i think i finally got it organized! it's not exactly how i could have chosen it, but i think it's going to work out :)

as of right now, i have one class on mondays, and three classes on wednesdays and thursdays. i'll also be lifeguarding for my college pool, so it's nice to be able to work a few hours in between classes.



i've been designing my next tattoo! it's a compass rose (similar to the picture) - my daily reminder that Christ is my guide for life, so i never need to worry about where i'm headed next.... i go to a consult at a local parlor today!

i can't decide if i should add on to my first tattoo (on the inside of my right arm, working towards a half-sleeve), or get the compass on the inside of my left wrist (my original idea).

thoughts??? i'll let you know what i decide! i'm getting inked the second week in august with my freshman roommate who will have just gotten home from her honeymoon!!! eek!

i went to the library... can you tell? i love books (especially free ones!). 

i also put a bunch on transfer, including Thrive, Eat Pray Love, Food Rules, and Veganomicon!

do you use your library? have any book suggestions for me?


finally, a recipe!

i got off my lazy rear and made a chickpea/quinoa salad, looking to Jess and Ashley for inspiration.

i just used what sounded good, but you can adapt it however you want! i'm broke, so i scrounged around until i was satisfied :)

chickpea salad - basic recipe:
cook:
- 1 cup quinoa, cooked according to directions (subbing veggie broth for water)
- 1/2 cup dried beans, or open, drain, and rinse 1 can of choice (i used chickpeas)

let cool slightly, then stir in:
- chopped veggies: i grated 3 cloves of garlic, chopped 1/2 a small red onion, and grated a carrot, but cucumber, strawberries, and/or avocado would make an awesome salad, too!

now, the fun stuff... add:
- 1 cup dried fruit (i used craisins)
- 1/4 cup toasted nuts (walnuts for me!)
- salt and pepper, to taste
- a few tablespoons of your favorite salad dressing, or EVOO + basalmic vinegar (i used a new find, Trader Joe's Raspberry Viniagrette)


and what would wrap up this ridiculously random post better than a picture of my scraggley dawg?
- rebekah

p.s. - check out Mama Pea's cookbook giveaway, y'all!

Jul 15, 2010

guest post: lisa.

ehllooooooooo poppets.


i am wiped out today, because yesterday i was a big dummy and was go-go-go all day, for the third day in a row.

if you know someone with fibro, you know can be the kiss of death.

it was.

so i'm kinda down for the count today, which gives me the time to realize - i haven't really posted anything about food in weeks.

i'm a naughty blogger, and must remedy this situation asap!

in the mean time, here's a guest post from the beautiful Lisa at I'm an Okie.

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First of all, I wanted to say a big THANK YOU to Rebekah for letting me do this guest post. Just to introduce myself..my name is Lisa and my blog is I’m an Okie. This is my story.


In January, I was a scared girl. Scared of food, scared of being myself, scared of failing, scared to try. Just scared.

I was a girl who would get anxious at restaurants around tempting food and because of that anxiety I would end up overeating AT the restaurant and then bingeing when I got home as well.

I’m the girl who was scared she would gain back the weight she had lost over Summer time. And because of that fear, it became a self-fulfilling prophecy of mentally restricting food, trying to be perfect with my diet, and then bingeing because I couldn’t mentally handle it.

I was a girl who would get upset over eating a cookie (I would still eat it but I would just be mad about it.) I had feelings that eating a cookie would make the scale rise and I didn’t want that.

No more though. I have been making an effort to just LET GO. I finally let go of all these mental restrictions and fear of food in my head. It wasn’t easy. But, I finally let myself have a cookie if I felt like. And not just 1 cookie, eat 5 if I wanted. I finally let myself have cereal for breakfast if I wanted (I used to not allow myself cereal–no protein). I let myself have pizza when I wanted. And something magical happened. I didn’t gain weight. Heck, I haven’t even been able to be super consistent with the gym at the all time and I’m still in the same 5 lb range. Everything is OK.

I no longer think about Food every waking minute of the day. I no longer watch the clock in anticipation of my next meal. I no longer freak out when I DO get hungry and I don’t overeat because of that anxiety. I no longer have anxiety at a restaurant. I went to Mexican for lunch and I realized that this was the first time I felt comfortable with all the delish food staring at me in the face. Tortilla with cheese, yes please.

This doesn’t mean I’ve become a junk-food aholic. It means I’m kind to myself now. I feed my body good HEALTHY foods but I feed my mind calm and peace. It really just feels so WONDERFUL.

And another personal achievement. I got an A in Chemistry! Yes, the girl who was deathly afraid of it. The girl who was sure that she was going to have to retake the class. The girl who broke down in Chem Lab and had an anxiety attack, couldn’t breathe and cried.

I’ve been putting off my interest in the Medical Field for 8 years now. It started in highschool. I dropped Chem half way through. I was convinced since my Math skills were bad I couldn’t do it. I dropped out after a week in Chem at the University of Oklahoma. I thought to myself “you aren’t smart enough.” “This is not where your talents lie”. So, I took the easy way out and got a “safe” degree. A degree that didn’t challenge me, all because I was scared.

I learned today and throughout the semester that I have absolutely NO REASON to doubt myself. EVER. I can do it. Don’t allow yourself to fail without even TRYING. Yes, I worked hard and I studied all the time, but I did it. This victory is 100% mine and it feels good.

Today is a day I will remember forever. In the course of 6 months, I’ve changed my life.

The new Lisa is here to stay.

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i am so amazed by her incredible transformation! go girl!
 
just goes to show you, it's worth it to put effort into living a healthy life, right?
 
would you like to do a guest post? email me at nelsonrr[at]mymail[dot]vcu[dot]edu!
what was the biggest challenge you faced in being healthier?
-rebekah

Jul 13, 2010

transfer students, and the Fibromyalgia Diet.

hello beauties! and gentlemen... can't forget my boys!

so yesterday, i had my transfer student orientation!

i am thrilled to be back in school after my frustrating last year or so, but it was a really challenging day, actually. if all had gone "according to plan," i would technically be graduating this december...


i know obviously my life was not meant to follow the "plan" of the typical american teenager, and i would never trade the experience and lessons i've gotten from not following the plan. i know this for sure, don't get me wrong... but it was still a challenge to not be a little disappointed, or maybe frustrated is a better word?

instead of starting as a second semester senior, i was transferred in as a second semester freshman. gotta love transferring from private, christian schools, yeah?

but you know what? that's ok. i'm excited to be back at it. i really am. and in hind sight - i am not the same person i was the first time i was a freshman. everything is going to be totally new and different, and that's exciting!

you know how sometimes, you have one of those situations where you smack your forehead and lament, "oh, i wish i knew then what i knew now!" well, i basically get the chance to "go back in time" and redo that now.

...venting session now over :)


more important things now, yes? in the past week or so, i've actually gotten quite a few emails on how and what to eat if you are dealing with a chronic disease/Fibromyalgia/nerve pain/cancer recovery. i thought i would elaborate, because unfortunately, i think everyone knows someone who struggles with one of these.

part of why chronic pain is so tricky is: 1.) the doctors aren't sure how and why it happens, medically speaking, 2.) they aren't sure of how to cure or treat it, and 3.) everyone is different, and responds to treatment differently!

grr.

ok, well, you know i find it frustrating, obviously, but if the doctors don't have any answers, what can we do about it?

diet always matters.

it's true. i don't care who you are - young, healthy, sick, old, overweight, underweight, an untra-marathoner - we all are humans, so food effects all of us.

unfortunately, if you are effected by chronic pain, be it from a car accident, Fibromyalgia, or rheumatoid arthritis, you don't have that "freedom" to pretend you are invincible. you can't pretend your diet doesn't effect you until you're 40 - you see the effects today.

this is good and bad. it's good because food does effects everyone, so you are more likely to take it seriously TODAY because you see how it effects you. being healthy is crucial. you cannot deny how important it is, and you don't believe in the saying, "ignorance is bliss." for you, there is no bliss in stupidity.

it's bad, though, because you can't be as carefree as your friends - when they just want to be young and eat like crap because they can, you can't, or you pay for it physically. it doesn't matter how much i want that ice cream cone, i CANNOT let myself eat it, or i won't be able to get out of bed the next day. period.

and trust me, i've tested it many, many times. you just can't cheat reality.

if the doctors don't have any solid, medical answers, though, how should we eat?


here's where i wish i had an easy, clear answer for you. the truth is, i don't, and neither does anyone else.

but through a lot of blood, sweat, and tears, i do have some recommendations for you to try.

it's really the same advice i'd give for everybody, but unfortunately, most people don't want to take diet seriously until something life-changing happens.

tips for managing chronic pain through food.

1. for lack of a better term, just man up.
there's just no easy way to attack this... i'm gonna sound a little mean here, ok? honestly, you just have to bite the bullet, and start being accountable for your habits. you're dealing with big kid problems now, so time to act like a big kid.

if you eat junk, you will feel like junk. if you already feel like junk because of your disease, you will feel even junk-ier if you eat junk. yeah, it's a word... haha.

this is your responsibility, not your doctors. if you don't do ANYTHING else to help yourself, please realize what you eat can make a HUGE difference in how you feel. whatever your excuse to not eat better is - too busy, too expensive, doesn't taste good, don't like to cook, crappy grocery stores, etc. - it just isn't good enough anymore. you are fighting new challenges, so you have to adapt accordingly.

unless you want to live every second of every day with the reminder that you are sick, you MUST eat as healthfully as possible. i don't mean freak yourself out about it, and i don't mean you can't ever have a cookie... but the FOCUS of your diet should be clean, natural foods.

the good news? it's what you do eat that's more important than what you don't eat. aim for foods that are simple: fruit, veggies, nuts, whole grains, lots of water, organic dairy, eggs, and meat when possible. make it easy for yourself, ok?

eating like this won't cure you, but it will give your body the basics it needs to fight for itself. there are so many things about chronic diseases you can't control, but this is one area you can help yourself immensely!

2. check your foundation.
if you haven't already, have you doctor do a blood test to check for vitamin/nutrient deficiencies. if you have a chronic illness, chances are, even with a flawless diet, your body will be lacking in some areas because it can't properly absorb all your nutrients. if you do find you have a deficiency, you will be amazed how much better you feel just from correcting that one, simple problem.

i hate to push supplements, but a very good idea is to look for a natural, balanced, plant-based multi-vitamin. you need more help covering your bases than the average chick does - it's not overkill. an omega-3 supplement wouldn't hurt, either. and your skin and hair will look fabulous :) 


do some research on the internet, or check your local health food store. look for vitamins made from whole foods, not chemicals, if you can help it. if you need a supplement, you can get a bottle of that particular nutrient from whole foods for cheaper than a pair of pants! pretty good deal if it gives you your life back, right?

3. get checked for food allergies, if you are suspicious.
food allergies don't necessarily cause your issues, but they can make you feel much, much worse. you don't need one more thing to deal with!

if your allergist does find something, be kind to your body and respect it. i know it's not easy (i have many!), but in the long run, you will feel so much better.

everyone's body behaves differently. for example, i have a few foods that i just need to be careful with - i can eat them, but not very often. i also have some things i NEVER eat, because the reaction is so unpleasant. honor your body. test it. play around with your foods and see what makes you feel good, and what gives you trouble. this is a learning process, so give yourself some time to figure it out.

also consider: yeast/gluten, dairy, and nightshade plants: tomatoes, chili and bell peppers, potatoes, and eggplant. gluten and dairy are pretty common allergens (for those with a disease or not), and nightshades have been known to cause migraines/inflammation, so definitely worth looking at.

4. check your vices.
the little things we do and don't think about can make such a huge impact on us! one of those areas is our "guilty pleasure foods," which we allow ourselves thinking they aren't that big of a deal. unfortunately, they do effect us even if we don't notice, and if you have chronic pain, the reaction is exponentally amplified.... not cool.

foods to free yourself of today: artificial sweeteners (splenda, sweet n' low, sugar-free products/gum), chemical food additives (nitrites, preservatives, MSG), and too much caffeine (more than 1-2 8 oz. cups coffee per day). if you eat a natural diet, though, you won't have to worry! score.

also, don't forget about pesticides on produce and animal products. when you can, buy organic (when it counts!).


really sucky, but really important: please watch your added sugars. yes, even "healthy sugars," like brown rice syrup, agave, honey, etc. i know it's a crazy-hard habit to break, but sugar makes everything hurt worse.

while chronic pain patients especially should avoid chemicals, caffeine, and sugar, everyone would benefit from staying away. they aren't natural, are questionably safe at best, and are proven to increase pain sensitivity... if you can help it, avoid them like the plague.

and caffeine isn't bad in itself, but it can cause cycles of fatigue if you rely on it too much. i believe in the powers of coffee (amen?), but try as i may, it cannot replace sleep (a common practice if you're hurting and can't rest). try to keep your coffee/tea in small amounts, and before lunch so you can catch those much needed ZZZs.


most important? chill.
i know what you're thinking... "don't stress?!? i have a chronic illness and you just gave me a checklist 50 miles long!"

i'm really sorry about both. truly, i am. although eating healthy is important to feeling your best, freaking out about every little bite you put in your mouth will undo all the potential benefits! as much as possible, please don't worry... i promise you will become excellent at managing your disease, and eating for it will begin to feel natural. you should put a good effort into it, yes, but the whole point is to help you, not create more stress!

i know it feels overwhelming right now, but you can do this! you will learn so much on how to cope, and about yourself. you will meet amazing people who will support you, and you'll learn HUGE life lessons.

just don't give up when it gets hard. please, don't.

tips to share?
advice on how to manage healthy eating?
-rebekah

EDIT - check out melissa's amazing cookbook giveaway!

Jul 2, 2010

the leftovers.

ever have those few leftover pictures on your camera you don't feel like posting about? or make something and forget to take pictures? or just feel like talking about random things from your week?

well, you'll understand today's post just fine.

ready for the randomness?

last week, i got a much needed haircut.
pardon my sour face/man's t-shirt/myspace pic.


i also made gluten-free breakfast bars for my little sister.

i used Karina's quinoa bar recipe, but i subbed nuts in for the fruit, thinking my sister would appreciate a little protein boost before swim practice.


fatal mistake, because she said they had NO flavor. my real challenge was finding a recipe that wouldn't crumble, though, and that was a success!

next time, i'll double the spices, and add dried fruit AND nuts.

and yesterday, i drove up to D.C. to visit the beautiful and crazy-talented Mo of Mo's Kitchen. have you read her blog? the recipes this girl tackles are baffling! i am humbled by her kitchen finesse :)

she recommended lunch at this cute local place, Sweet Leaf Cafe, and who am i to turn down a lunch date? i ordered the "Berry Leaf" Salad, which is "strawberries, almonds, cranberries, cucumbers, greens, and strawberry balsamic vinaigrette."

very tasty, but since i am the tasmanian devil, i require a bit more food. thankfully, i never leave the house without a car full of snacks!


Mo has the same medical issues that i struggle with, so we talked doctors for a while, then turned to more positive things - food, life, and Target!

um... she had never been to Target! i had to remedy this situation A.S.A.P.!

no joke, if i could pop a cot at Target and just camp out there, i would. it's my home away from home, and pretty much all my savings end up there (split with Trader Joe's, of course).

since i'm a grandma, it was time for me to head back to richmond. i really enjoyed my time in D.C., and can't wait to visit my sweet, new friend again. hang in there, girl!

about 4 hours of stop-and-go traffic later, i returned home, sweaty and hungry. if you've ever ridden in the car with me, you know how bad of a road-tripper i am... i hate the car. so as soon as i got in, i grabbed a snack, unpacked, and hit the treadmill to stretch out my cramped thighs.

and after the treadmill? um... i did... yoga (!!!).

Christie, i know i'm eating my words here, but can i make a confession?

i am a yoga convert.


let me explain - i HATED yoga. i've taken countless classes, all different types, and really tried to go in with an open mind... but each time, i ended up counting down the minutes until i was free. i hated every... S...L...O...W... second...

i thought it just wasn't for me, but after an especially painful fibro week, i was desperate. i caved in and tried some, "just to stretch," in my room after a run.

bingo.

i realized i was approaching it all wrong. i was trying to look at my practice like a workout... it had to be done for an hour, in a studio, with your game face on. serious business, this yoga thing. it was somewhere i challenged myself to be perfect, and couldn't be.

but yoga isn't about being perfect (like running). it's about bringing balance back into our crazy, hectic lives. it's about learning your center, your rhythm, and honoring your body.

and no one cares how long, how fast, or how often i practice when i'm alone, just honoring my body. i'm no jennifer aniston - just a girl doing the best i can with what i've got. it has become something i look forward to; something that balances out the intensity running brings to my life. and it feels soooooooooooooooo good after a long, hot, hungry car ride!

so if you haven't tried it yet, don't rush out to a studio or pop in a Slave-Driver-Jillian video just yet. how about trying a few poses on your own first, and seeing what you like? what feels good? what helps you just let go of the day? unwind?

i plan on hitting up a class here soon to expand my repitoire of postures, but there's nothing wrong with the basics. anything that works for you is perfect!

do you like yoga?
what does it do for you?
do you take classes?

HaPpY fRiDaY, y'AlL!
-rebekah


May 28, 2010

school, celebration, and sweets.

hey guys - i'm so impressed with your running experiences! you guys are amazing and have it together way more than i do. so never give up!

earlier in the week, i got my acceptance letter as a transfer into VCU's public health education program! i blogged about when i applied, but never filled you guys in on anything concrete.

i'll be there for sure in august... and i feel so blessed after all this to be able to go back :)


i might just graduate before i'm 50!

my lovely boy is taking me to celebrate at one of richmond's best eats, edo's squid.


ok, don't freak out - they do serve squid, but they also make the best italian food in virginia! incredible soup, fresh fish, and pasta like you wouldn't believe, and i don't even like pasta. i'm sure these lovely two have been... they can back me up!

so naturally, what did i do to celebrate?


made candy, of course!

sweet, salty, frito candy...? well, we had an abandoned bag of fritos in our pantry (my 16-year-old brother apparently moved on. the horror.), and it was begging me to bake with it. strange? it didn't seem so at the time, no. so bake i did!

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhmyword. it's like saltine toffee candy ON CRACK! i'm not normally a sweets person, but a few bites of this and i was in heaven (or sugar high. same difference?). i just didn't add the peanuts on top just because i didn't have them... next time!

please head on over to the amazing anna's blog at cookie madness if you're interested in the recipe (which is where the picture is from, too, because i was too lazy). this woman is a goddess, y'all. i want to make everything she's posted!



and i'm still buzzin'.
this is what happens when you turn an avid sugar-avoider loose in the kitchen with good news, i guess... chocolate chip cookies, coconut brownies, banana cookies, brownie cookies, lemon curd trifle, birthday cake... i cannot be trusted! i just love to bake for other people when i'm excited.

anything new with y'all? let's celebrate :)
- rebekah

May 12, 2010

today is may 12th.

and i thank god that most of you will never have to deal with it, but today is national fibromyalgia awareness day.


if you are bored or have a second, would you mind reading a bit about it? i had never even heard of fibromyalgia until a year ago, and since then, it has flipped my world upside down. you can check out my experience here.

fibro is not a life-threatening condition, so it doesn't get the press AIDS or cancer gets, but it is a life-changing diagnosis. if you know anyone who has fibromyalgia, give them a hug for me!

May 3, 2010

blessings, a recipe, and a giveaway.

hello my lovelies.
i had just a jumble of thoughts going through my head today.

1. the smallest things in life can be the biggest blessings.
         i don't really talk about it much, but these last couple months, i have struggled hard with managing my fibromyalgia. the foremost struggle is my fatigue/pain for sure, but an unexpected challenge has been with my hunger.
not only is it rare for me to be hungry, but i actually have to force myself to eat most of the time (FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE EVER). think about trying to eat again right after thanksgiving dinner... that's what a lot of my meals have been like.
... pure torture for a foodie!

so after months of struggling with eating enough, today i felt REAL HUNGER. i mean, i ate a normal lunch, and 30 minutes later, i was starving.
at the time i thought it was strange and kinda knocked on wood, but when i got home, i actually cried. it was such a relief to feel "normal" again, even if it was just for a few minutes. normally, the pain dulls my hunger, but today, my body's natural signals we're ok!

it's such a small gift, but when your sick, life is just more simple and raw, and normalcy is a treasure.

          the boy and i also had a really emotional talk today. i can't say enough good things about what he's done for me in the last year. from the moment we, he faced all my physical challenges head on.
sure, we've had our struggles, but he has been there for me when i didn't have words to express the depth of my fears.

once again, he blew me out of the water today with his faithfulness and diligence.
a small thing, but it meant something huge to me.
i'm a lucky, lucky chick.


2. i made pesto, and you should too.


we have a little pot of pesto growing out back that all of a sudden decided to explode.
when life gives you basil, you make pesto.

EDIT: thanks to jess, i realized that i should mention we actually don't have a pesto plant, but a basil plant :) whooopppss.


not-your-average-pesto pesto (technique crash-course from 101 cookbooks)
1 huge handful of basil leaves
3 cloves garlic
5 sundried tomatoes
1 big pinch nutritional yeast
3 or 4 spoonfuls olive oil
salt and pepper

                                     
directions: 
heidi describes the process much better than i ever could. basically, i grabbed a handful of a few things and started chopping, then added more when i got it uniform, and kept adding until i had all my basil, garlic, tomatoes, and nutritional yeast minced. i scooped it into a little bowl, stirred in the salt and pepper, and covered it with a thin layer of olive oil. 

                               

om nom nom.
slather me on a baguette, please.
 
3. anyone interested in any free JUSTIN'S NUT BUTTER!?!?!?

any small things that you guys discovered recently?
- r

Apr 19, 2010

family gatherings and product review.


how insanely gorgeous was the weather this weekend???
it was PERFECT here. so beautiful.


le sigh.
anyways, onto food, shall we?

i haven't been very good about taking pictures of my daily eats recently, but i think that's a good thing.
don't get me wrong, i love reading daily eats blogs (hello kath!). i think it can be really interesting to see how other healthy bloggers eat, but most of my food is pretty repetitive and not photogenic. think about when your stomach doesn't feel well... usually, that's not when you try out an exotic new thai dish. i tend to kinda think this way:
"um.. i'm hungry. helllloooo conveniently placed apple!"

you guys know what an apple looks like, right?
ok, i think we're on the same page.

also, i think it can be easy to get trapped into taking pictures of EVERY bite you put in your mouth. it can turn a bit obsessive, and i don't really want to head down that road. i enjoy my food with NO GUILT, and i enjoy the pictures i do take, so why fix it if it ain't broke? capishe?

just because it's been about a week since i bombed your google readers with a kitchen sink salad, here's your fill for this week.

spinach/kale base, bell peppers, cukes, avocado, tomatoes, radishes, carrot, strawberries, chopped dates, stacy's pita chips, salsa, hot sauce, and nutritional yeast!

om nom nom. cheeseeeeeeeee.

mom always jokes that i can't go back to school, because who will make her salads???
i'll hire an intern, mom. no worries.

also, a new addition to KSS (kitchen sink salads) worth sharing:


foodie review:
riceworks sweet chili rice chips
these are SO good! mom and i got a huge box to share from costco probably a month ago, and we've been slowly working our way through ever since! if you don't already crumble chips in your salads, you guys are seriously missing out. it's like croutons that don't taste like dirt!

they make quite a few flavors, but i've only had the chili. i can't wait to get my grubby little paws on some of the other varieties... especially the baked cinnamon!!!

they're made from whole grain rice and gluten-free, so they're pretty dang awesome for someone with food sensitivities (like my celiac sister).


moving on...
want to see more of my snacks?
of course you do!


it's an apple, i swear.
nor is it a mutant - not stellar lighting, i'll admit.


my first savory oats experience!
- 2 tbsp oat bran
- 1/4 c rolled oats
- 1/2 c unsweetened coconut milk
- pinch salt
- insane amounts of black pepper
- garlic powder
- onion powder

after i cooked it almost all the way, i stirred in a laughing cow swiss cheese wedge.

#@*$(@#$#@*$(@#$#@*$(@#$#@*$(@#$
i want more now!
like cheesy mashed potatoes,
but way better for you!
(not knocking the spuds...)

prime example of why i don't document everything i eat.
allow me to introduce you to daily breakfast:
- 1/2 c cottage cheese
- sprinkle stevia
- mixture of 2 kinds of cereal... usually trader joe's high fiber cereal and ezekiel cereal.

photographic yawn.
and it's 5:30am.
double yawn.


but tasty!?!?

we also had a little family get together on saturday.
usually, mom and i try to cook for the family on saturday since it's one of two nights dad's home for dinner (he works in illinois).

the crowd usually includes me, mom and dad, my little brother and sister if they aren't out on dates, my older sister and her guy, my nephew, and any other scragglers who are left high and dry and need some grub.

on the menu:
- roast
- mashed potatoes
- green beans
- roasted sweet potatoes (low and slow)
- mushrooms sauteed in red wine reduction
- ciabatta bread from tj's
- homemade fro-yo!
le spread.

my salad.
you know the deal/usual suspects.


taters.


oops.

i wanted to show you guys my shirt, but i forgot to put down my towel...
it says c'est la vie!
correct me if i'm wrong french-speakers,
but doesn't that mean it's the life?

it also has my favorite thing on it: a fleur-de-lis.
not sure when the obsession started, but i'm in love.
i think it's the combination of the old-world look of them and the shape. they're just so gorgeous and intricate. 

and finally,
check out my new tab.
if you're interested in why my life is the way it is (no school, work, etc.), check it out!

happy moday loveies!
-r